Je te veux.

Tout ce que je voulais, c'est quelqu'un,
Pour entendre quand je parle,
Pour rire de mes blagues,
Reconnaître ma douleur juste en le regardant dans les yeux,
Fais-moi sourire quand ce n'est pas mon jour,
Pour chanter sur nos chansons préférées ensemble,
Manger sur nos plats préférés ensemble,
Pour donner un coup d'épaule pour moi de pleurer,
Lire mon esprit avant même que je dis,
Bon à deviner ce que je fais,
Débat sur un des sujets stupides,
Tout ce que je voulais, c'est que si vous pouviez être là pour moi.

03.33 AM, 11.11.10

P/S: I got thing with French nowadays. Romantica de amor. AHAHA. Apakahh.. -.-'

My eyes and your smile.

When I closed my eyes..

I see..

Raindrops..

In someplace beautiful..

When I closed my eyes..

I see..

Sunsets..

Sky was orange..

and water splash hit the seaside..

When I closed my eyes..

I hear..

Kids laughing..

Sounds of their footsteps running..

When I closed my eyes..

I see..

Greens.. trees..

and butterflies..

When I closed my eyes..

I see..

Blue skies.. and

Couples playing bubbles together..

When I close my eyes..

I hope..

To see your smile..

When I got my eyes opened..

:)

P/S: Coldplay - God Put A Smile Upon Your Face. This song kinda fit this poem kan?

All I wanted is..

To climb on a mountain,

To watch sunsets by the beach,

To scream top of my lungs,

To bungee-jump of a cliff or of a bridge,

To swim in warmest sea, with giggles and laughs,

To lie down, on the widest field, and

To count the stars, and make wishes as it shoot the sky,

To hear owls make sound and the cricket sings,

To eat ice cream and chocolate, the whole day,

To laugh till my tears fall trough and run dry,

To sing my favorite song out loud though it sounds awful,

To run in the most beautiful garden, where there's grass grew tall,

And most thing I wanted is.. to do it with you and no one else.

:)

P/S: It is not the matter where are you going to, but to whom are you going with - anonymous.

People always leave, when we wishes they'd stay.

Janganlah datang dan pergi,

Oh I wish that you had stay,

Janganlah datang dan pergi,

Oh how my heart jumped to joy when you say 'hye!'.

Janganlah datang dan pergi,

Oh how I miss your warm smile,

Janganlah datang dan pergi,

Did you know that my feeling you're messing with?

Janganlah datang dan pergi,

Oh when I had hated you so much, then you come knockin' back.

Janganlah datang dan pergi, jangan.

Is when sometimes, people come when they need to. Is when sometimes, people come but they never wanted to stay.

"Just dropping by, and say hello.."

"Till we meet again.."

No more come and go. But that's life, people then to leave when it's RED.

P/S: You don't know me - Regina Spektor & Ben Folds. This song, explained how I feel.

Tetap kuat, walaupon sendiri.

Bosan kan hidup macam ni?

Ah tak mengapa.

Kau nak ke patah hati lagi?

Kasihan lah pada hati,

Yang penting jaga diri.

Siapa kata kau sendiri?

Ada mereka disekeliling sekarang ini,

Cuma kau yang tak sedar, sebab suka hidup dalam dunia sendiri.

Tak perlu kau nak cari salah sendiri,

Mereka yang rugi,

Lepaskan kau, yang mereka takkan jumpa pada sesiapa lagi.

Tak mengapa merasa sedih begini,

Semua ujian hidup di muka bumi,

Memang tuhan tu sedang menguji.

Ganjaran? Kau akan dapat, jika pandai sabar, kawal emosi.

Tak perlulah kau gusar lagi,

Tak perlu kau menangis sendiri,

Kuatkan iman, tetapkan lah hati,

Kau tetap kuat walaupon sendiri.

JYEAHH! YOU GO GIRL!

P/S: Note to myself. Keep on running girl. No need to turn back and hesitate. Fall down and get up. Keep yourself on track, on the move! Tear is your friend, gain come after pain.

Bila, lagi?

Bila telefon nak berbunyi lagi?

Sekarang senyap, sunyi sepi.

Bila hati nak berbunga lagi?

Sekarang hanya patah hati.

Bila nak bergelak tawa lagi?

Ah itu semua memang mimpi.

Bila lagi, nak dapat makan bersama?

Hm.. hanya menunggu hari.

Pasti kan datang nanti,

Dah, tak perlu gusau, nak sedih2 lagi.

Kerana yang BURUK pasti akan pergi,

Yang BAIK pasti akan menjelma nanti.

10/25 01.23 AM

P/S: This was then. Now dah kembali gelak. But dunno for how long. huhu. ;)

Mood: HAPPY now, PATHETIC then.

My first date was..

HAHAHA. Tiba2 teringat, how my first date was. Date ke? HAHA. Date la kot. My first date was back then when I was working at Nandos, br habes SPM. So ade this fellow, really want to go out with me. And Im kinda pity him. HAHA. Jahat gile ok. I date him, for the sake of my bestfriend. Because this fellow, macam takut that I didn't want to actually go out with him. HAHA. Kebetolan, kitorg both cuti on the same day. And kebetulan jugak, on the day ktorg kua tu, Nandos kene masuk org. Bnyk jugak duit hilang. So kitorg yg tak kerja ni, tade la kene soal2, o blame o anything kan.

So berbalik kepada first date td. So it is my first date ever. At the age of 18 kot. HAHA. So does him. Dia pon 18 gak. So gerak dari rumah by tren, then met him kat BB. HAHA. Turun2 tren tgk dia dh tercongok kat situ. LAWAK. Siap pakai kemeja bagai. Kemeja kaler putih. Ingat lagi. yedehh! I hardly remember what i was wearing la kan. HAHA.

So masa tu, umor blom cukup 18. Sbb bday lambat. demm. So, nak kua dating kene la draw duit kan. Draw duit gaji ni. Pakai buku bank tu hah! HAHAHA. So, pegi la MAYBANK BB tu. Draw duit kn. Sambil tggu2 giliran tu. Borak2 la. Adoyai mamat ni. Busan gak. Opss.. SORRY. But dia tak main any kind of sport! What kind of men who doesnt play any?

saya: Ko tgk F1 tak?

date saya: urmm... tak.

saya: ko tgk NBA tak?

date saya: urmm... tak.

saya: Aku ske dow. ko tak ske eh. ( maap la, saya ni boyish sket)

date saya: urmm.. tak sgt.

saya: Pastu, ko tak men sport ke?

date saya: urm.. tak. Aku ske vespa.

*danggg!*

Yang lawak nya. Vespa yang dia br beli tu, beli dekat ex aku plak. Tyme tu x couple lagi laa. HAHAHA. Dia bagi nama Vespa dia. Ros Merah. Banyak kali ajak nek Vespa dia. Tapi tak pernah nak nek pon. Alasan : "Ermm.. mak aku tak bagi la nek moto dgn laki.."

HARHARHAR.

Ok ok. So dah draw duit. Pastu cam, ktorg tak tau nakg mane. Plan tanak ar jenjalan kat BB gak. Kang kantoi ngan dak Nandos yg lain. HAHAHA. So ktorg g KLCC. Menapak ok!! Jalan kaki. HAHAHA. tapi seronott la jugakk, tapi penat nak mam laaa. Jauh plak. Mamat ni dh bese kot. Tau plak dia jalan nak g sane kan. Mase pavi pon ntah ade ke blom. X hengat. Okay.. so ktorg jalan laa. Borak2. Cam bese, aku je la yg borak. Tanye pasal future. Saya mmg seorg yg high ambitious and looking ke arah future. Tp dak laki, at that age, mane la pk sangat. Tau nak main, ngorat awek je. HAHAHA. Aku tanye sepatah, dia jawab sepatah. Tapi mmg blur and pendiam org dia. Orang kate A, A la dia. Adoyaiii. Sengal2 ubi btol.

Dah sampai KLCC. AKHIRNYA! Ok nak makan mane ni? G la food court KLCC tu. Em.. tyme tu trigin nak makan Kyross Kebab. Pegi la beli. Dia beli jugak. Beli air ape ek? Im not into carbonated drinks. Bli air mineral. Dia beli jugak air mineral. Tak paham dh aku. HAHAHA. Sume pon nak ikot aku kan. Haishhh.. Borak2.. borak2.. Mase tyme tu, aku cam.. cepat la habes.. boring dh. Tapi aku makan lembab makan sipot. Tak habes2 Kebab tu. HAHAHA. Lepas tu jalan balik smpi BB. Kalo tak silap. HAHA. lupe..

Sampai umah.. aku rase.. adoyai... boring gle! Date ape la cani. HAHAHA. Tape laa. First tyme ek. Lepas je first date tu, aku tros turn-off dgn dia. Bukan marah o anythin. Kire cam dah 'reject' dia laaah. HAHAHA. Lari2 dari dia. Tak gelak cam selalu. HAHAHA. Kesian dia. Nak bwat cane 'Im just so that into him'. Bukan ape.. dia tade cite2, dia tatau ape dia nak. Lepas tu tanak sambong study. We're different laa. kan? Memilih sgt kot aku ek. So, lama2 macam tu laa. Dh tak layan dia sgt. Terok tak? Kejam kan? HAHAHA.

Ah, itu cte dlu..

P/S: Mamat tu name dia Aizat. Name penoh dia sedap. Tapi tak igt dh plak. Dengar cte, dia dh meninggal. Eksiden vespa. Vespa ex aku plak tu. demmm. Tapi kesahihan cerita dia dh eksiden tu tatau laa kan. Teruk btol aku nih. Dok cte pasal org yg dah tade. Tapi kesian kat dia. Dia anak sulung. Adik dia ramai plak. Mak dia jual nasi lemak jeh. Kekadang dia bwk nasi lemak utk bekfes g keja. Dia keja backgrill. Kalo opening tu, dia mmg bawak bekal laa. Sedih plak. Sory Aizat. Aku reject kau. Tapi Tuhan sayangkan kau. Dia dah amek ko. Aku tak tau ble lagi. Pahala pon tak bape2 ntah. Btw, great knowing you. Ko baik, cume ko sengal2 ubi and tade pendirian. Maybe sbb ko muda, and nak main je slalu.

end of storyyyy.. heee :D

whats with birds and a liar?

Two birds on a wire
One tries to fly away
And the other watches him close from that wire
He says he wants to as well
But he is a liar

I'll believe it all
There's nothing I won't understand

I'll believe it all
I won't let go of your hand

Two birds on a wire
One says c'mon and the other says "I'm tired"
The sky is overcast and I'm sorry
One more or one less
Nobody's worried

I'll believe it all
There's nothing I won't understand

I'll believe it all
I won't let go of your hand

Two birds of a feather
Say that they're always gonna stay together
But one's never going to let go of that wire
He says that he will
But he's just a liar

Two birds on a wire
One tries to fly away and the other
Watches him close from that wire
He says he wants to as well, but he is a liar

Two birds on a wire
Once tries to fly away and the other...

Two Birds - Regina Spektor