Je te veux.

Tout ce que je voulais, c'est quelqu'un,
Pour entendre quand je parle,
Pour rire de mes blagues,
Reconnaître ma douleur juste en le regardant dans les yeux,
Fais-moi sourire quand ce n'est pas mon jour,
Pour chanter sur nos chansons préférées ensemble,
Manger sur nos plats préférés ensemble,
Pour donner un coup d'épaule pour moi de pleurer,
Lire mon esprit avant même que je dis,
Bon à deviner ce que je fais,
Débat sur un des sujets stupides,
Tout ce que je voulais, c'est que si vous pouviez être là pour moi.

03.33 AM, 11.11.10

P/S: I got thing with French nowadays. Romantica de amor. AHAHA. Apakahh.. -.-'

My eyes and your smile.

When I closed my eyes..

I see..

Raindrops..

In someplace beautiful..

When I closed my eyes..

I see..

Sunsets..

Sky was orange..

and water splash hit the seaside..

When I closed my eyes..

I hear..

Kids laughing..

Sounds of their footsteps running..

When I closed my eyes..

I see..

Greens.. trees..

and butterflies..

When I closed my eyes..

I see..

Blue skies.. and

Couples playing bubbles together..

When I close my eyes..

I hope..

To see your smile..

When I got my eyes opened..

:)

P/S: Coldplay - God Put A Smile Upon Your Face. This song kinda fit this poem kan?

All I wanted is..

To climb on a mountain,

To watch sunsets by the beach,

To scream top of my lungs,

To bungee-jump of a cliff or of a bridge,

To swim in warmest sea, with giggles and laughs,

To lie down, on the widest field, and

To count the stars, and make wishes as it shoot the sky,

To hear owls make sound and the cricket sings,

To eat ice cream and chocolate, the whole day,

To laugh till my tears fall trough and run dry,

To sing my favorite song out loud though it sounds awful,

To run in the most beautiful garden, where there's grass grew tall,

And most thing I wanted is.. to do it with you and no one else.

:)

P/S: It is not the matter where are you going to, but to whom are you going with - anonymous.

People always leave, when we wishes they'd stay.

Janganlah datang dan pergi,

Oh I wish that you had stay,

Janganlah datang dan pergi,

Oh how my heart jumped to joy when you say 'hye!'.

Janganlah datang dan pergi,

Oh how I miss your warm smile,

Janganlah datang dan pergi,

Did you know that my feeling you're messing with?

Janganlah datang dan pergi,

Oh when I had hated you so much, then you come knockin' back.

Janganlah datang dan pergi, jangan.

Is when sometimes, people come when they need to. Is when sometimes, people come but they never wanted to stay.

"Just dropping by, and say hello.."

"Till we meet again.."

No more come and go. But that's life, people then to leave when it's RED.

P/S: You don't know me - Regina Spektor & Ben Folds. This song, explained how I feel.

Tetap kuat, walaupon sendiri.

Bosan kan hidup macam ni?

Ah tak mengapa.

Kau nak ke patah hati lagi?

Kasihan lah pada hati,

Yang penting jaga diri.

Siapa kata kau sendiri?

Ada mereka disekeliling sekarang ini,

Cuma kau yang tak sedar, sebab suka hidup dalam dunia sendiri.

Tak perlu kau nak cari salah sendiri,

Mereka yang rugi,

Lepaskan kau, yang mereka takkan jumpa pada sesiapa lagi.

Tak mengapa merasa sedih begini,

Semua ujian hidup di muka bumi,

Memang tuhan tu sedang menguji.

Ganjaran? Kau akan dapat, jika pandai sabar, kawal emosi.

Tak perlulah kau gusar lagi,

Tak perlu kau menangis sendiri,

Kuatkan iman, tetapkan lah hati,

Kau tetap kuat walaupon sendiri.

JYEAHH! YOU GO GIRL!

P/S: Note to myself. Keep on running girl. No need to turn back and hesitate. Fall down and get up. Keep yourself on track, on the move! Tear is your friend, gain come after pain.

Bila, lagi?

Bila telefon nak berbunyi lagi?

Sekarang senyap, sunyi sepi.

Bila hati nak berbunga lagi?

Sekarang hanya patah hati.

Bila nak bergelak tawa lagi?

Ah itu semua memang mimpi.

Bila lagi, nak dapat makan bersama?

Hm.. hanya menunggu hari.

Pasti kan datang nanti,

Dah, tak perlu gusau, nak sedih2 lagi.

Kerana yang BURUK pasti akan pergi,

Yang BAIK pasti akan menjelma nanti.

10/25 01.23 AM

P/S: This was then. Now dah kembali gelak. But dunno for how long. huhu. ;)

Mood: HAPPY now, PATHETIC then.

My first date was..

HAHAHA. Tiba2 teringat, how my first date was. Date ke? HAHA. Date la kot. My first date was back then when I was working at Nandos, br habes SPM. So ade this fellow, really want to go out with me. And Im kinda pity him. HAHA. Jahat gile ok. I date him, for the sake of my bestfriend. Because this fellow, macam takut that I didn't want to actually go out with him. HAHA. Kebetolan, kitorg both cuti on the same day. And kebetulan jugak, on the day ktorg kua tu, Nandos kene masuk org. Bnyk jugak duit hilang. So kitorg yg tak kerja ni, tade la kene soal2, o blame o anything kan.

So berbalik kepada first date td. So it is my first date ever. At the age of 18 kot. HAHA. So does him. Dia pon 18 gak. So gerak dari rumah by tren, then met him kat BB. HAHA. Turun2 tren tgk dia dh tercongok kat situ. LAWAK. Siap pakai kemeja bagai. Kemeja kaler putih. Ingat lagi. yedehh! I hardly remember what i was wearing la kan. HAHA.

So masa tu, umor blom cukup 18. Sbb bday lambat. demm. So, nak kua dating kene la draw duit kan. Draw duit gaji ni. Pakai buku bank tu hah! HAHAHA. So, pegi la MAYBANK BB tu. Draw duit kn. Sambil tggu2 giliran tu. Borak2 la. Adoyai mamat ni. Busan gak. Opss.. SORRY. But dia tak main any kind of sport! What kind of men who doesnt play any?

saya: Ko tgk F1 tak?

date saya: urmm... tak.

saya: ko tgk NBA tak?

date saya: urmm... tak.

saya: Aku ske dow. ko tak ske eh. ( maap la, saya ni boyish sket)

date saya: urmm.. tak sgt.

saya: Pastu, ko tak men sport ke?

date saya: urm.. tak. Aku ske vespa.

*danggg!*

Yang lawak nya. Vespa yang dia br beli tu, beli dekat ex aku plak. Tyme tu x couple lagi laa. HAHAHA. Dia bagi nama Vespa dia. Ros Merah. Banyak kali ajak nek Vespa dia. Tapi tak pernah nak nek pon. Alasan : "Ermm.. mak aku tak bagi la nek moto dgn laki.."

HARHARHAR.

Ok ok. So dah draw duit. Pastu cam, ktorg tak tau nakg mane. Plan tanak ar jenjalan kat BB gak. Kang kantoi ngan dak Nandos yg lain. HAHAHA. So ktorg g KLCC. Menapak ok!! Jalan kaki. HAHAHA. tapi seronott la jugakk, tapi penat nak mam laaa. Jauh plak. Mamat ni dh bese kot. Tau plak dia jalan nak g sane kan. Mase pavi pon ntah ade ke blom. X hengat. Okay.. so ktorg jalan laa. Borak2. Cam bese, aku je la yg borak. Tanye pasal future. Saya mmg seorg yg high ambitious and looking ke arah future. Tp dak laki, at that age, mane la pk sangat. Tau nak main, ngorat awek je. HAHAHA. Aku tanye sepatah, dia jawab sepatah. Tapi mmg blur and pendiam org dia. Orang kate A, A la dia. Adoyaiii. Sengal2 ubi btol.

Dah sampai KLCC. AKHIRNYA! Ok nak makan mane ni? G la food court KLCC tu. Em.. tyme tu trigin nak makan Kyross Kebab. Pegi la beli. Dia beli jugak. Beli air ape ek? Im not into carbonated drinks. Bli air mineral. Dia beli jugak air mineral. Tak paham dh aku. HAHAHA. Sume pon nak ikot aku kan. Haishhh.. Borak2.. borak2.. Mase tyme tu, aku cam.. cepat la habes.. boring dh. Tapi aku makan lembab makan sipot. Tak habes2 Kebab tu. HAHAHA. Lepas tu jalan balik smpi BB. Kalo tak silap. HAHA. lupe..

Sampai umah.. aku rase.. adoyai... boring gle! Date ape la cani. HAHAHA. Tape laa. First tyme ek. Lepas je first date tu, aku tros turn-off dgn dia. Bukan marah o anythin. Kire cam dah 'reject' dia laaah. HAHAHA. Lari2 dari dia. Tak gelak cam selalu. HAHAHA. Kesian dia. Nak bwat cane 'Im just so that into him'. Bukan ape.. dia tade cite2, dia tatau ape dia nak. Lepas tu tanak sambong study. We're different laa. kan? Memilih sgt kot aku ek. So, lama2 macam tu laa. Dh tak layan dia sgt. Terok tak? Kejam kan? HAHAHA.

Ah, itu cte dlu..

P/S: Mamat tu name dia Aizat. Name penoh dia sedap. Tapi tak igt dh plak. Dengar cte, dia dh meninggal. Eksiden vespa. Vespa ex aku plak tu. demmm. Tapi kesahihan cerita dia dh eksiden tu tatau laa kan. Teruk btol aku nih. Dok cte pasal org yg dah tade. Tapi kesian kat dia. Dia anak sulung. Adik dia ramai plak. Mak dia jual nasi lemak jeh. Kekadang dia bwk nasi lemak utk bekfes g keja. Dia keja backgrill. Kalo opening tu, dia mmg bawak bekal laa. Sedih plak. Sory Aizat. Aku reject kau. Tapi Tuhan sayangkan kau. Dia dah amek ko. Aku tak tau ble lagi. Pahala pon tak bape2 ntah. Btw, great knowing you. Ko baik, cume ko sengal2 ubi and tade pendirian. Maybe sbb ko muda, and nak main je slalu.

end of storyyyy.. heee :D

whats with birds and a liar?

Two birds on a wire
One tries to fly away
And the other watches him close from that wire
He says he wants to as well
But he is a liar

I'll believe it all
There's nothing I won't understand

I'll believe it all
I won't let go of your hand

Two birds on a wire
One says c'mon and the other says "I'm tired"
The sky is overcast and I'm sorry
One more or one less
Nobody's worried

I'll believe it all
There's nothing I won't understand

I'll believe it all
I won't let go of your hand

Two birds of a feather
Say that they're always gonna stay together
But one's never going to let go of that wire
He says that he will
But he's just a liar

Two birds on a wire
One tries to fly away and the other
Watches him close from that wire
He says he wants to as well, but he is a liar

Two birds on a wire
Once tries to fly away and the other...

Two Birds - Regina Spektor

truth behind the lie.

.
.
.
agree?

imma DREAMER.

it happens..
everyday,
every moment,
every minute,
in every weird times,
while driving,
washing dishes,
cooking,
doing laundry,
in lectures!

hmphhh..
dreamer dreamer!
wake up! come back to reality!

that is when the lecturer starts calling my name..

pfttt! :p

P/S: because basically my dream was only about YOU.

bubbles, sky, me and you.

nak main ni..

dengan you :)

<3

the only thing I wish love,

is if we.. had spend some time together back then.

November is a sweetie

Shocked, but still. this is absolutely me. huh!

(some facts I get from random post by friends in FB)

People who born in November is..

Stubborn and hard-hearted. - hoooo. memang. ada batu dudok ini dalam.

Strong-willed and highly motivated. - yes i am!

Sharp thoughts. - ngeee. ye kot. kadang2 blur jugak.

Easily angered. - sometimes. darah panas.

Attracts others and loves attention. - everybody does. duhhh. maybe because i do a lot of talking kan. of coz i love attention. xkan nak ckp sorg2 pulokkkk. :P

Deep feelings. - yes, yes, yes.

Beautiful physically and mentally. - hehehe. tanak la masuk bakul angkat sndr plak kan. ngeee :D

Firm Standpoint. - yeszaaa. wen i dont want, i dont want la! :P

Needs no motivation. - sometimes, terlebeyh motivated. sometimes seek, n hunger for one jugak.

Shy towards opposite sex. - hahaha. ye ke? ye la kot. dulu lagi terokkk.

Easily consoled. -haah! memang pon. hmm :)) well pleased..

Systematic (left brain). - kadang2. i kinda know.. what to do next after another. tp macam kelam kabot je dunia aku. hehehe.

Loves to dream. - sangattttt. banyak sgt tgk TV kot. :P chix flick! chix flick!

Strong clairvoyance. - emmm.. i donno what dis means. cud some one tell me? hikhik :p

Understanding. - i do, but not particularly THEM. because they came from a TOTALLY different planet. PLANET PELIK!

Sickness usually in the ear and neck. - haah haah. y eh? ear salu berdenggung. hmmm..

Good imagination. - hahaha. sangat. terlebeyh2. :p

Good physical. - ok kot. but pancit jugak kkdg2. strong will, but badan cannot stand. hmm. end up demam n saket.

Weak breathing. - yes i do! i have sinus. therefore, not enuf oxygen = kapla pon peninggg. blood circulation pon up side down.

Loves literature and the arts.- YJEAHHH!

Loves travelling - DOUBLE JYEAHHH!

Dislike being at home. - kaki jalan jugak. but, i think im kinda homey i guess. i love to stay at home watch TV and cook meals.

Restless. - emmmm, yes i do :(

having many children.- HAHAHA. memang pon. baru la meriah! i love kidssssss :p

Hardworking. - ble semangat ITU sudah datanggg.

High spirited. - yang ini, name dia, enthusiasticcccccc... ble bercerita. AHAHA. :D lompat2! lari2! gelak kuat2! high spirited la tu. kan?

:p end of story.

dis is basically about...

MUA !

:))

Musik dari seberang.

Im not being someone who doesnt love their own country. I do indeed. Just that some bands from the other side sounds so damn GREAT. Music clean, English lyric - perfecto!

Tak lame pon bunyi dia.

Macam band ini, osem! Sumpah macam Radiohead.

Cuba la donlod kat sini, kalo nak try dengar.

okeng?

P/S: Highly recommended for those who has same music souls as mine :D have fun listening!

what about yours?

this is some of mine,

my favourite..

i "fool" you. (once upon a time)

So, every time you felt like one my friend,

don't bother,

this is called 'process' or 'system',

this is how things work,

happens when you're in IT.

;)

no, i dont want.

like others, like mine.

when love is only a feeling.

*sigh*

then that I had realize,

and there's no point of being regret,

when love is only a feeling.

hi peeps, meet my guy :)

si kuyus yang tak berapa nak fit. tgk tummy dia, ade terlebeyh2 kuar. kiut!!! :P

girls just wanna have fun!

wehuuuuuu!~

long hours in flight?

bagus untuk mereka yg kreatip.. dan bosan. HARHARHAR.

let's (english) meraki (not english) !

dream job.

alhamdulillah.

After all ups and downs in life, god had reward me, with something that is quite flattered, and amusing. Soon I will start my practical studies. In someplace farrrrrr, yet amazing. Placed in a department that ive been dreaming to, wish to work in, when there is a lot of talking, presenting, and communicating. Thanx to Bapak, with the recommendation.

So Ainiah,

shud i?

for..

truth to believe..

love to keep..

wisdom to stand for..

and.. you..

forever..?

kerajaan Allah.

Allah,
tiada Tuhan (yang berhak disembah) melainkan Dia,
Yang Tetap hidup,
Yang Kekal selama-lamanya mentadbirkan (sekalian makhlukNya).
Yang tidak mengantuk usahkan tidur. Yang memiliki segala yang ada di langit dan yang ada di bumi.
Tiada sesiapa yang dapat memberi syafaat (pertolongan) di sisiNya melainkan dengan izinNya.
yang mengetahui apa yang ada di hadapan mereka dan apa yang ada di belakang mereka, sedang mereka tidak mengetahui sesuatu pun dari (kandungan) ilmu Allah melainkan apa yang Allah kehendaki (memberitahu kepadanya).
Luasnya Kursi Allah (ilmuNya dan kekuasaanNya) meliputi langit dan bumi; dan tiadalah menjadi keberatan kepada Allah menjaga serta memelihara keduanya.Dan Dia lah Yang Maha Tinggi (darjat kemuliaanNya), lagi Maha Besar (kekuasaanNya).

aminn~

indeed, powerful guarded and deep meaning...

goodnyte peeps :)

bercinta tanpa janji.

Bercinta tanpa janji,

Tanpa tahu maksud hati,

Berdiri sendiri, hanya menunggu hari,

Hanya dapat sabar menanti,

Bila dapat mengisi, kekosongan di hati,

Kerana takut tinggal sendiri.

Kau tidak pernah ada disisi,

Terus kuigau kucupan di pipi,

Berpegang tangan, mengengam jari,

Senangnya hati walau tidak tahu ke mana pergi,

Sampai bila harus ku nanti,

Diriku si buta, berjalan tanpa tahu malam atau pagi,

Bertemankan gerak hati,

Aku hanya, bercinta tanpa janji.

Inspired by :

kau masih berdiri kaku
harapan mati
panas terik dihati
melihat kau begini
hanya menuding jari

aku terus berjalan
namun tetap menunggu
zaman yang buta warna
terima tanpa beza
senyum tanpa curiga :)

lelapkan lah mataku
hilangkan ragu
tiupkan lah nyawaku
jangan kau
tidur tiada mimpi
hanya seperti
bercinta tanpa janji

mengapa kau bersahaja?
kemana perginya
akal yang istimewa
pendirian dipuja
semua tersedia

kaku - liyana fizi

always.

So soon, dont fade.

because I had always stay,

missing, and waiting for you.

So soon, dont fade,

because I had always here,

to grow, and be with you.

So soon, dont fade,

because I had always love,

dreaming of me holding on you.

By my side.

Sparkling sparkling sparkling eyes,

Oh I dream of you every night,

Sweetheart darling oh my sweetheart,

Will you ever gonna be mine?

Beating beating beating fast,

Did you hear how my heart pounds?

Running running come lets run,

To the world where there's only us.

Come close, come close near by,

All I want is you, here by my side.

bear your love.

and so i have this heartache,

a pain in the chest,

and so i have this feeling,

towards u like,

not that i want to,

or could it be just a test.

and so i couldnt sleep at nite again,

got my eyes open wide,

as i dreamt of u that i nvr had.

and so i always wish for happy ending,

where dere will be rainbow and bird sings,

no i dont want to cry a tear,

not once, so do her.

and so, i know life was nvr sure,

because this is not we should be were,

and so i pray for the pain to go away,

so thus wanting for strength to bear,

to bear your love.

just beautiful.

oh, I been here before,

long ago with someone just,

as beautiful, thoughtful and kind.

oh, please make me grow high,

long ago, to be with someone just as beautiful,

thoughtful and kind.

oh, its beautiful, to have this feeling inside,

will there be something just as beautiful,

wiser and warm.

oh, I can't believe my eyes,

my heart us wrecking inside,

oh now, Im numb, quiet and scared,

will there be just only two of us?

mood: totally mixed feeling. yes, it does hurt.

with someone just as beautiful as u.

You make me sick in a lot of ways
Make me smile always
I'm just really into
Having this chase
Kept my eyes open everytime
Falling for you is a crime
We let sparks go off
This time

Oh oh
I've been here before
Not long ago
With someone just as beautiful
Just as doubtful
I sure don't mind
Having you
This time

I see it in the steps you take
I hear it in the sounds you make
I'm just really into
Having a taste
Remind me how we got this far
Remind me how we fell apart
Oh I can't give you
That space in my heart


And then we fall asleep.

I'm the one
Whos always in the way
But you got me
Hoping for more more more
I'm here to stay
As though I am always there
As though I had never left

Oh oh
I've been here before
Not long ago
With someone just as beautiful
Just as doubtful
I sure don't mind
Spendin time
I've been here before
Not long ago
With someone just as beautiful
Just as doubtful
I sure don't mind
I sure don't mind
I sure don't mind
Getting hurt again

Sparkle by Yuna.

ok mlm ni saya emo. missing someone for too much.

all i can see is you.

losing hope,

yet seeing it again,

and so you had wear me your lenses,

where all I can see is you,

losing hope,

yet seeing it again,

though not now,

but well some parts will be,

we're indeed gonna too,

and so you had take all of my senses,

where now all I can see is you.

IMY

another version red roses, blue violets.

Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

You are what I had,

So I'll nvr stop loving you.

Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

Now that I'm glad,

Because I have you.

Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

Do you see how we're holding hands?

Oh trough the night I think about is only you.

Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

Yes, there's gonna be an end,

Thats when I'm holding on you.

so much on love huh? well, yet to be. I just don't know when :))

tots for the stranger.

more on her huh?

huhu. well.

i shud be thinking about danger, shud be prepare for the danger,

cuz he is a stranger,n is he going to take her.

will there be "together"? well, dont let go if you still want her.

Yuna "New Again" Cover

keep playing in my mind. over n over again. yup, good being new again. so judge me now! im better than before.

so i try.

Trying so hard to hate you,

not like before,

Trying so hard to forget you,

not like it hurts,

Trying so hard to sleep,

not like I don't think about you,

Trying so hard to get over you,

not like I want to.

for what is.

For what is pretty,

is your eyes, your smile,

and your heart.

and for what is sweet,

is your mouth and,

the smell of your hair.

and for what is gentle,

is your touch

and your hello.

and for what is making me crazy,

is only you and no one else.

sudden goodbye.

hearts that feel me,

eyes that know me,

face that melt me,

hands that hold me,

lips that kiss me,

feet that walked me by,

never thought that you wanted to say goodbye.

hati muda.

oh hati muda,

mudah berubah dan mula lupa,

oh jiwa muda,

suka bergembira dan mula berduka,

oh hati muda,

hanya nampak yang di depan mata,

oh jiwa muda,

suka bersifat bersahaja,

oh hati muda, oh jiwa muda,

aku tahu, aku pun begitu jua.

im gonna

gonna put myself up higher,

gonna stop looking down at all things,

gonna make myself believe in real life,

but not fairy tales,

gonna put some smile,

though inside is tearing apart,

yes,

im gonna make myself to.

once, twice

once, twice i don't mind

im sure that im gonna fall again,

once, twice now that i had start counting,

im sure that im gonna start hoping,

once, twice now that im crying,

im sure that i never stop trying,

once, twice now that myself is full of hatred,

im sure that i had stop believing,

once, twice now that i had call myself a fool,

im sure that im the one who lose,

once, twice now that he had make me waited.

heart for writing.

salam,

hey, ok dis is kinda weird. well i have a heart for writing ever since high school so dis a great a start to express what so ever thoughts in my mind. well, might i say i have a bumpy road long tyme a go. pain, laugh, hurt n cry make me stronger,n think far beyond. so have fun reading mine.

p/s: my english is kinda sux. well saya cakap melayu kat rumah tapi saya suka dgr lagu matsalleh dan movies mereka jugak.LOL! :p